Supsup Readers!!!Hello once again...Its been so long since I last post anything...hahas...because I was too busy...Sec 4...zzz...stupid number...hahas...plus SO OLD!!!! Hahas...well I just recieve my second CA report...fail 1 subject...which is like so stupid...and what did I fail...That happens to be FnN...after all the hard work I have put in...this was what I get...crap lah...Well life in OYC haven't been great...still got a feeling that someone will be there to break me down emotionally and mentally...How I wish I can really get over the things that have been happen...Alot of people tell me that...I'm not really a good christian...because of my pride and stuff...me pride..thats weird...I always give into you all...what makes you think its pride?? Well I don't really know...after all I'm just a person who everyone hates thats all...Well to tell you guys...I don't really have any good friends that I can look up too...even though there are a few people there...but maybe I just not comfortable with them...The only few people that I have as and really regarded them as someone who makes a lot of difference in my life..that will be God, Jonas, Russell, Mark and last but not least Rou Juan..well...as you all can see from here I only trust this few people...and only they know my hurts and sorrows...I always thought that I am alone...But when Jonas, Russell and Mark came in to my life..They were the one who as really been there to listen to me when I am down...sharing my joys with them and stuff...As for Rou Juan the only girl whom I really trust in OYC and who has really been there when I really needed help...she was one of the few people who really stood by me and cared for me when I am down...may it be words or through words...She will try her best to cheer me up and make and smile on my face!!! Thanks so much ROU JUAN!!!To tell you all the truth...I'm really jealous of the BB people...why?? Because of their unity and relying on one an another, love and passion for GOD..Well to me they are like people whom I can really see GOD in their lifes...and I'm thankful to this one person who really sacrifice his time to talk to me and he is none other than Jonas...He is someone that I really look up to as a friend and a rolemodel..thanks so much Jonas!!!Wah...my birthday coming...don't think anyone will remember...will it be like last year?? Huh? What happen last year? Well nobody or to tell you the truth..no one wants to wish me happy birthday at all...not a single one..I remembered my first birthday wish is from Zhong Hong..after that Candy then Luke...and right after that...I have not recieve any happy birthday wishes from anyone..at that time my feelings and my heart was like having torns all over and it hurts like crazy...but what I didn't know is on Saturday..2 days after my birthday..when some of the BB people saw me...they dircetly wish me happy birthday...I was like so shocked...but at that time I was quite happy because..I still have friends that really remembered my birthday..and that is when I first met Jonas...His first sms to me was HAPPY BIRTHDAY...and I was so happy...Well hahas...got to go already running late for worship practice...!!! hahas BB
