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Hello guys...its been a while since I last wrote anything..Reason being...nothing to post...exams...and a lot other things..well I am not complaining but at times i really feel jealous.. And because of that I want to make myself like that person..hopefully can do better than him/her..But I just can't a lot of people can say that I am kind nice naive jolly and have no problems at all...well I can tell you all this...Have you all ever wondered what is it like to be alone even when you have friends around you..That feeling...I always feel..Do you have any idea what's that feeling...I do..For the past 3 years..even when I am with my friends from OYC, even just a simple lunch I can be left out..most likely they forget about me..then I will just be like staring at my phone hoping that someone can sms me..but that wont happen anymore..I remembered one of my friends saying,' Even your best friends might fail you". Trust me..honestly it does..I had that experience...and the temtation of not going OYC is always there you know..and I just wanna just give up on all of them..I will only be notice when they need me...

What do I mean?? For example...worship...not that I am saying that it is really a bad thing to play for worship but when you have burdens and you are playing its not really good though..I have been praying about it..hopefully GOD will be able to do something about it..secondly will be going out...They will only call me when there really isnt any other people anymore..like I'm in the last slot and always keep asking me at a wrong time...then when it is finally settle, someone will suddenly just tell me its cancel...and reason saying oh I have no mood going to movie already...what kind of weird excuess is that right...Haiz never mind...I have nobody to count on..

In my life there are only a few people that I really trust and have faith that he or she will be able to make a difference in my life...and these people are...GOD, Jonas, Russell, Tim Liang, Kenneth Lim, Ben Sim and Joel Tieh..They are all from ACSI..Even though I dont get to talk to them much..but..they are the people who is willing to spare sometime for me..listening to all my problems and feelings..expically Jonas...I remembered last year during the decipleship camp, I was ssms-ing him throughout the whole camp...Get what I mean now by even you have friends beside you, you will still feel lonely? This is what I mean...I'm quite blessed to meet him...He was one of the few primers who is willing to listen to me...Thank GOD for him..if not...today there wont be a me anymore...

Hahas...so happy...EXAM ARE FINALLY OVER AT LAST...4 days to rest...THAT's GREAT..and wednesday and thursday is our school's house games..and Friday...ooh...the day that I thought that will never come...WHICH is my EOY practical exam...OMG!!! SO SCARY so to those who had read my blog do pray for me thanks!!!! Hahas...got to go now...hope that i will be able to post again real soon!!!! Niteynitez...